day after the the worst show our band has had. new venue, new gear, new people and it all added up to a bad performance.
now I'm left thinking do I give up after all this work or do I carry on with it? Who knows? i don't know if it's the dynamic
or the songs, the words or all of it. i do feel proud to have written so many songs and they sound beautiful to me, i get lost when we are on stage playing, but then it comes crashing back down when no one claps after you expose your heart on stage for what feels like a life time but is really only a short breath after all. i want to keep writing lyrics and poetry but it keeps getting harder after each failure. how much can you take trying to give people something unique and different and no one cares everyone has become so indifferent to anyone they can't get something from. i know i'll keep writing maybe just stop putting my soul on the line for people to walk over time after time...
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